There are times when I look at the news and I want to scream. Most recently this nonsense about Justin Bieber being filmed sleeping and I ask myself why is this even news? An incredibly beautiful plus sized model has made the news because the press have criticised her lack of ‘thigh gap’, calling her a pig. Who even knew there was such a thing as ‘thigh gap’ and what’s more, who cares? The new big brother winner, who is it? I have no idea really and as for reality TV, the ‘real housewives, real this, real that’ they are anything but ‘real’. Kim Kardashian and her pregnancy weight, her engagement, her life…who cares, really, and if you do then I really would like to know why?
Sometimes I shake my head at the complete banality.
This week a new friend shared with me that it was the anniversary of her sister’s death, when I asked further I found that she was just thirty years old when she succumbed to breast cancer, leaving her son who was just four years old. I have another friend whose little boy, having just reached his sixth birthday, has again had to go into hospital to start more treatment as a cruel and relentless cancer is trying so hard to take him. This is his third battle and one we pray he wins. I have another friend who is going into hospital this week for heart surgery and we say that like it is nothing, but trust me when I say having had my own husband experience the same thing, that no matter how much reassurance you get, it is a big deal and it is frightening for all concerned.
Today I am sitting here thinking how grateful I am for my life. I might not be quite as thin or as fit as I would like to be, my arthritic knees might give me grief and I wake each day wishing I had slept a little longer, but, and this is a huge but, I am grateful. I am grateful for my life, for my health, for the health of my family, for the fact that I will never go hungry, for having a roof over my head, for being in a position to help others, for the people who love me and who I love, for my family, my friends, even my pets. I have a charmed life and I am truly grateful.
Stop for a second and breathe in your life, there is a saying and I have no idea who said it but it goes something like this:
“If you are living with depression you are living in the past,
if you live with anxiety you are worrying about the future,
only when you live in this moment will you find your peace.”
Count your blessings and live in this moment.